What a handsome man, eh?
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Some Pics of Ben
Okay so when I saw these pictures I thought...who is that hott man? Well he is mine and he is so handsome. He looks so different. WOW. These are some pictures that I stole off of Facebook. He looks like he is doing well and I cannot wait to see him.
What a handsome man, eh?
What a handsome man, eh?
Avoidance
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Good News
Ben's leader pulled him aside today and told him thank you for laughing and smiling and being so positive. She told him that because he is who he is, he is boosting the moral of the group and the place they are in.
I am so grateful for Ben and how he is. He has such a great sense of humor and he is always smiley and laughing. I am so glad that I am his best friend and that I know him so well. I love my husband and I am so proud of him for being so happy all the time.
I am so grateful for Ben and how he is. He has such a great sense of humor and he is always smiley and laughing. I am so glad that I am his best friend and that I know him so well. I love my husband and I am so proud of him for being so happy all the time.
Sunday, March 14, 2010
Ben is Doing Well
Ben has called me a few times and emailed me once. He is doing pretty well. He is in a leadership position that is the highest one can go in his rank. I am so proud of him. He is finally able to eat without worrying when he has to weight in and they are getting a few more privileges. Ben is still getting this situated with learning how to march getting the footing right and he gets to call out orders to he has to learn all of that jazz...whatever it is I have no idea. I am not sure what else to write right now so I will update more as it comes to me.
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Update
Ben called me a few minutes ago. I was dead asleep and I heard the phone and I had to gain some composure to make sense on the phone.
Ben told me that he is in the highest leadership position that a person can be in his rank. That was pretty cool to hear. So that is keeping him really super busy. He is going to sleep at 11 and waking up at 4 everyday. He said his days are running together and he had no idea how long he has been gone. Too bad it has only been like 4 days. He sounded really good, but really tired. He had to go soon because he had to get up and be in charge of some kind of something in the morning. He told me that he misses Braeden and to give him a big kiss for him. He is already behind in his school work because of this leadership position and doesn't know how he will get it all done.
He said that his new group officers came in today and they just yelled at everything. If you had a thread in your uniform, of something that was off...they would just get in your face. Ben said he has never been so scared in his life.
I am so glad that he called. It helps me get through.
Ben told me that he is in the highest leadership position that a person can be in his rank. That was pretty cool to hear. So that is keeping him really super busy. He is going to sleep at 11 and waking up at 4 everyday. He said his days are running together and he had no idea how long he has been gone. Too bad it has only been like 4 days. He sounded really good, but really tired. He had to go soon because he had to get up and be in charge of some kind of something in the morning. He told me that he misses Braeden and to give him a big kiss for him. He is already behind in his school work because of this leadership position and doesn't know how he will get it all done.
He said that his new group officers came in today and they just yelled at everything. If you had a thread in your uniform, of something that was off...they would just get in your face. Ben said he has never been so scared in his life.
I am so glad that he called. It helps me get through.
Missing You
There may be many blog posts titled missing you. It just fits.
Nighttime is the worst for missing you. I start to miss your touch and your company. When the day is done and Braeden is asleep and I am all alone...I cry. There is nothing else to do. I long for a hug from you or a kiss on the cheek. I cannot do this. I realize that I am not going to see you for 4 months. That is a really long time. I want to tell you how my day went and get your story from the day. I want to cuddle with you on the couch and watch our favorite TV shows as we look into each others eyes and laugh. I miss your laugh. You always seem to make me smile.
Braeden is growing everyday. He is learning new things and he seems to make the pain dull a little bit. He makes me smile and reminds me of you and why we are going through this. The reality that you are not coming home, just makes me ache all over. I want to talk to you. I know you are so busy, but I want to know what you are doing and learning. I love you!
I know others may be reading this blog, but please bear with me. This may be mushy or whatever you want to call it, but being alone is so hard. I heard a song today that I have heard many times, but it hit me really hard. It is called "Two is Better Than One" by Boys Like Girls and Taylor Swift. I love that song. I put it on the bottom of my blog for anyone who want to hear it. It just sums up my feelings for today.
I cannot put in words what I am feeling. My family is here for me, but to a certain extent. There are things that I want to tell by spouse and share with him. I cannot have my mom hold me in her arms the way Ben does. Maybe it will get better. I know there are others out there who are going through the same thing right now. I pray for them and all that they are going through. I pray for their strength and I hope that it gets better. That the days go by faster and faster until the time that they can see their loved one again.
Nighttime is the worst for missing you. I start to miss your touch and your company. When the day is done and Braeden is asleep and I am all alone...I cry. There is nothing else to do. I long for a hug from you or a kiss on the cheek. I cannot do this. I realize that I am not going to see you for 4 months. That is a really long time. I want to tell you how my day went and get your story from the day. I want to cuddle with you on the couch and watch our favorite TV shows as we look into each others eyes and laugh. I miss your laugh. You always seem to make me smile.
Braeden is growing everyday. He is learning new things and he seems to make the pain dull a little bit. He makes me smile and reminds me of you and why we are going through this. The reality that you are not coming home, just makes me ache all over. I want to talk to you. I know you are so busy, but I want to know what you are doing and learning. I love you!
I know others may be reading this blog, but please bear with me. This may be mushy or whatever you want to call it, but being alone is so hard. I heard a song today that I have heard many times, but it hit me really hard. It is called "Two is Better Than One" by Boys Like Girls and Taylor Swift. I love that song. I put it on the bottom of my blog for anyone who want to hear it. It just sums up my feelings for today.
I cannot put in words what I am feeling. My family is here for me, but to a certain extent. There are things that I want to tell by spouse and share with him. I cannot have my mom hold me in her arms the way Ben does. Maybe it will get better. I know there are others out there who are going through the same thing right now. I pray for them and all that they are going through. I pray for their strength and I hope that it gets better. That the days go by faster and faster until the time that they can see their loved one again.
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Snow in March
Ben I sure hope you are enjoying that nice 70 degree weather where you are ...here is what we have...
Leaving Day
Yesterday was the day that we went up to the SLC airport to take Ben to leave for 4 months. We had both been really strong and been holding up really well, except for last Saturday when we celebrated my birthday early and Ben asked me to dance. I bawled my eyes out. We danced to Miley Cirus' new song "When I Look at You." We had a theme to this party surprise. Ben printed some pictures of our family and he wanted something for both of us to be able to look at while we were apart. Ya...I was a mess. He wrote a cute letter and it made me cry so hard. He was crying to...although he will not admit it. Silly men!
Anyways...it really didn't hit that he was leaving until we were actually driving up on the airport itself. We got out and made sure he had his itinerary stuff. Then it was goodbye time. I cried and cried and didn't want to let him go. He is my sweetheart and my life and I didn't want to me without him. He was really sad too, but he is so strong. Braeden was asleep in the car and when Ben went to give him a kiss I just lost it. Those two boys are best buddies. They do everything together. Ben came and gave me another kiss and then we parted ways. I waited for a minute or two until Ben started to walk away. I said I love you and he shook his butt at me. That helped me a little...made me laugh. He took off and I had to be somewhat put together because I had to drive. Then I called my mom and started crying again. It was rough. Then my sister Kim, B and I went shopping. That helped me not think about the whole situation.
Today I awoke to the sounds of Braeden saying, "dada da dad da," and me still thinking that Ben will be home any minute because he worked a night shift. It still really hasn't sunk in that he is gone. He is gone for a long time and I am doing this alone...well almost. I have Heavenly Father and my family, and some really great supportive friends. I hear Braeden playing and he says, "dada dada," and then I lose all composure. Just when I think that I am strong, I am weak. I pray that I can do this. I hate being alone. I love you Ben! Good luck and I will be thinking of you and praying for you! We miss you already.
Anyways...it really didn't hit that he was leaving until we were actually driving up on the airport itself. We got out and made sure he had his itinerary stuff. Then it was goodbye time. I cried and cried and didn't want to let him go. He is my sweetheart and my life and I didn't want to me without him. He was really sad too, but he is so strong. Braeden was asleep in the car and when Ben went to give him a kiss I just lost it. Those two boys are best buddies. They do everything together. Ben came and gave me another kiss and then we parted ways. I waited for a minute or two until Ben started to walk away. I said I love you and he shook his butt at me. That helped me a little...made me laugh. He took off and I had to be somewhat put together because I had to drive. Then I called my mom and started crying again. It was rough. Then my sister Kim, B and I went shopping. That helped me not think about the whole situation.
Today I awoke to the sounds of Braeden saying, "dada da dad da," and me still thinking that Ben will be home any minute because he worked a night shift. It still really hasn't sunk in that he is gone. He is gone for a long time and I am doing this alone...well almost. I have Heavenly Father and my family, and some really great supportive friends. I hear Braeden playing and he says, "dada dada," and then I lose all composure. Just when I think that I am strong, I am weak. I pray that I can do this. I hate being alone. I love you Ben! Good luck and I will be thinking of you and praying for you! We miss you already.
Thursday, March 4, 2010
Leaving On A Jet Plane
Welcome to our new blog. This blog is set aside to tell of the things that happen everyday...or mostly everyday while Ben is gone for 4 months and then events in our new military lifestyle. It is going to be a wild roller coaster ride, but I am going to make it fun!
Ben leaves March 8th. He will fly to Montgomery, AL for 4 weeks and the it is on to Ohio for 3 more months. From there we will be moving to Mountain Home, ID. We are stationed there for 3 years and we are going to make the best of it. Make new friends, get to know the land and all it has to offer. We want to mountain bike and canoe and have lots of fun together with our little family. Ben will come back around July 1st. So this summer, Braeden and I needed somewhere to document our adventures that Ben could go and see what we are up to. I hope that I will have time to do this because I will be taking 6 credits in the summer. It will be a fun, crazy, sad, wild summer. But we will take it one day at a time. We love you Ben and we are ready to see what this life holds for us. I already love being an Air Force wife.
Ben leaves March 8th. He will fly to Montgomery, AL for 4 weeks and the it is on to Ohio for 3 more months. From there we will be moving to Mountain Home, ID. We are stationed there for 3 years and we are going to make the best of it. Make new friends, get to know the land and all it has to offer. We want to mountain bike and canoe and have lots of fun together with our little family. Ben will come back around July 1st. So this summer, Braeden and I needed somewhere to document our adventures that Ben could go and see what we are up to. I hope that I will have time to do this because I will be taking 6 credits in the summer. It will be a fun, crazy, sad, wild summer. But we will take it one day at a time. We love you Ben and we are ready to see what this life holds for us. I already love being an Air Force wife.
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